Re-Connect to Past

How peculiar to reconnect with Husband No. 1 after 34 years. Credit the power of technology and even, Google! Funniest thing, though, is that he was looking me up, about the same time I, was looking him up. Not too much seemed to have changed for him, though he had divorced the lady who stole his heart, i.e. one of my good friends!

She has moved on to another love, after he left her for her wacky ways! Wackier than mine? Apparently!

Me, I moved on to many other loves, loved, lost, and finally in my fifties, may be finding myself and I like me! I never liked myself much til now. Now that I have given up on comparing myself to others for better or for worse. It just feels good to be me.

I have come to terms with my mania ;-) and let it be part of me, yet, in recognizing it and allowing for it, giving it its due, I seemed to have tamed it. I know it and it knows me.

I'm not sure what he has come to terms with, this husband no. 1, but I found him after all these years, witty (and I remember that he always was), stable (though I think he went through some weird years) with wife no 2 who lasted many years, to the point of getting grown girls educated and out of the house...

He gives no indication he'd like to meet up....I was kind of hoping he'd like to....but that's ok....but he did credit me with starting him out on his tennis career. We started tennis lessons together in 1974 and played tournaments and league tennis. Now, he coaches and teaches tennis, in a town near you!! Apparently, he's been quite faithful to the sport. This makes me proud of him.

I don't know what I came on this earth to do, but I know I've fought many battles, mostly with myelf. I cannot begin to figure out how this relatively short life on earth impacts our spirit and what we do once we pass the borders of this atmosphere and return to the "place" or space from which we came.

But it is interesting to catch up to someone whom you haven't laid eyes on or spoken to in 34 years, but someone you loved and cared for, and to find out a bit about what they have lived. I encourage anyone who can, to contact someone, a best friend, a relative, a lover, and find out how what's up. Who knows what door it may open, or not. We have to be willing to understand that there are no obligations on either side, and perhaps the gesture may not even be welcome. But we can try.

Here's to our past, and better, our present!